I was so stupid. So so so so stupid. Why did I think that it would be different? Well I guess you were different, but it’s the fact that you weren’t willing to sacrifice anything else. I look back, and I still hurt. It’s inevitable; a girl will always carry the pain in her heart for years until she’s been mended. I haven’t been mended yet. Am I happy? Undoubtedly. I am so happy that I made the right decision to stay away from you. You were nothing but trouble. I spent the whole summer sulking because of you. I was depressed. I entered college a wreck, but came out happy. I owe it to God, all of my friends and the freedom I was given. 

This year, I’m going to be happy. No, I really mean it. I’m a different person now. I’m more optimistic, and just that itself will make everything so much better for me. This year, I’m going to make the most of what I have. I’m going to cherish every last moment I spent with my favorite people. This year, I will be full of laughs and happiness. I’m not going to look back because it’s in the past now. I won’t dwell on what I should’ve done or what could’ve happened because it’s completely pointless now. Instead, I’m going to live in the present & future. I’m going to focus on being successful and setting a new life for myself. I’m going to forget about everyone who doesn’t matter, and I’m going to be happy.

Here we go.